This year more than any before requires an attitude of gratitude from yours truly. I always imagined my twenty-fifth year to be a big one and it did not disappoint. This was of course the year that I married my darling husband. A man and friend I am grateful for every single day.
After the wedding we traveled on our honeymoon to one of the most gorgeous areas of the entire world, the central California coast. Everything was fabulous: the food, the scenery, the pace, the wild life, the beaches, the sunsets, our cabin!!!! Many, many, many fond memories.
Family has always been important in my world and I'm so grateful we got to spend time with ours not only at the wedding (THANK YOU ALL AGAIN FOR BEING HERE)but also through visits to the South and trips to come see us in the Northwest. Our move has been difficult on all our family but especially on our parents. Thank you for understanding and for sacrificing so that we can live where we feel the best. I'm so grateful. I'm also very proud of every one of my siblings this year. It's such a treat to watch them all find their ways and grow into their-selves. I'm grateful for all my sister's continual health and perseverance and for all my brother's risks. Med school, Hawaii, THE FIRST LGBT FRIENDLY BAR IN SAN MARCOS!, the start of a small business, and the courage to carve out their ways, I have brothers that stand by my sisters and for that I couldn't be more grateful.
My family grew and grew this year!
Seeing my big sister three times this year was such a blessing!
This year I have been feeling very introverted as I transition from wedding industry, Pitta, fast moving, driven, boss lady Whitney to the healer/teacher that I hope to become. I've had to claim my quiet time and I apologize to all my dear ones I have been out of touch with. To my friends and family: You are the ever present force on my shoulder, sending me forward in my path, I hope you all can feel the energy, intention and love I send you during my yoga, and my reiki within this hibernation time.
To the pioneers and trailblazers that teach me to go my own way, I salute you. I salute the many strong and gifted teachers I've acquired and learned from this year. To my family in the Northwest that keep me going, that encourage me, listen patiently, feed me chocolate and feed my soul, I am endlessly grateful.
Lastly to the circle of women in my life: Your joy is the light that can heal the world.
I've never been a one trick pony but I've always been a list maker. When I think back to the inevitable question of "what does one what to be when one grows up...?" I remember lists and lists. Egyptologist, doctor for the W.H.O., Martha Stewart, Lounge Singer, Magazine editor...
This is still true today (especially the lounge singer position) but, for the first time in my adult life I'm feeling excited by the prospect instead of saddened or intimidated. Believe me when I say I have read almost EVERY self help book on choosing a career so I know the agony of feeling like you have no set direction.
If you're truly feeling lost on what your life's purpose is I suggest:
Lawrence G. Boldt's, "Zen and the Art of Making a Living".
Or if you want something less purpose driven, more action oriented, I suggest: "I Could Do Anything If I Only Knew What It Was" by Barbara Sher.
But you know, getting older does not inherently make you wiser and reading every career driven self help book will not make you a success... you have to go within to be able to listen to your true self. This requires a huge slowing down. Or in my case, an eternal vacate from the wedding industry.
Sometimes it's really scary to admit that there is not one, clear, linear, cut and dry way to get where I'm going. The reality is that life is fluid and ever changing. In reminding myself of this truth I can forgive the seemingly ambling part of myself that is always changing.
When you put all your eggs in one basket you miss opportunities for growth. I'm starting to think that even though it may be very risky, and everyone will think you're doing it the hardest way possible, it's more advisable to forgo the basket. Carry those eggs tenderly, next to your heart. Yes, they may slip from your grasp and shatter but dreams are fragile and you have to keep them warm and close. Carrying them tenderly just shows how incredibly precious they are.
Breathe, design, heal.
Whitney R. White stays inspired by her love of historical spaces, nature, beeswax candles, hand-made objects, comedy, coffee and visual storytelling. She is a connector, brand ambassador, reiki practitioner, inspiration sparker, and new mamma! She lives with her husband and son in the San Juan Islands. She used to teach floral design classes, yoga, and one day she'll dabble in clay.